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So much is going on right now I feel like I'm in a whirlwind. I'm not sure how to think or act on so many different issues. Right now I'm so angry with God. Sheila asked me the other day why I was angry and I listed every single reason. There were probably 20 things listed. The great reassuring news is that both she and God can take it. God can take me being angry with him. He understands my frustrations and is loving me through it all, and best yet he gave me an awsome best friend to listen to me. She doesn't judge me. She didn't try to make me feel guilty for being angry with God. She listened and understood. Getting it all out in the open I think was something I really needed to do. I have had so much bottled up that it was eating at me. I already feel better even though none of the 20+ things are fixed. I know we all go through these times, and that it will get better, but I'm just so thankful that I have someone to confide in and who loves me enough that I can whine and complain and be myself with, and she loves me just the same.

On a more happy note, today is the Burdick's anniversary. I'm very happy for them they have accomplished something that is rare in today's time. But this is also a good thing for me b/c without them getting married there would have been no Joe. And if I didn't have Joe I wouldn't have Josie and Jolie and I can't imagine my life without any of them.