I am going to do a thankful Tuesday today. As I look at everyone's facebook pages or blogs a lot of people are praying for sick or dying children, a lot of people are praying for families that have just lost a child, and a lot of people are praying for women trying to get pregnant. All of this just reminds me of the two most wonderful blessings God has ever given me, my daughters Josie and Jolie. We always say that Josie was our planning and Jolie was God's planning. We tried eight long months to get pregnant with Josie. Those were the most emotional and roughest eight months of my life. I was so low and actually the day before I found out I was pregnant I stood in front of my church and confessed how depressed I was that God had not given me what I had been praying for. I cried in front of everyone and the very next day I found out I was pregnant. I will never forget that day. Joe was at work and he rushed home. We went and told our parents and called everyone. Some reacted better than others. The rest of the day I spent with one of my best friends, Ashley. We went and bought "What to Expect When You Are Expecting." We looked at baby name books. It was a great day. Then two weeks before Josie turned one, I woke up early one morning and for some reason I took a pregnancy test. To this day, I'm not sure what made me take that test, but it had a very faint line. I shoved that test in front of Joe's face and asked him if he saw what I saw. I cried. I had no idea how we were going to pay for another child. Daycare was already the biggest bill we paid each month. Also things were changing at work and it was not the most opportune time for me to have a baby. I was so scared. I started calling everyone, and to my surprise everyone was so excited. I just knew people would tell me that they were too close or some of them act like they had when we told them the first time. I didn't get that at all. I guess everyone had fallen so in love with Josie that the thought of having another child thrilled them.
My girls are my world. They amaze me every day. They are two of the most loving little girls, not only to me, but to each other, and to other people. Their laughs and smiles can erase the worst of days. They have taught us so much and I could not imagine my life without either one of them. I am not sure why God has blessed me so wonderfully as I don't deserve it, but I thank him every single day that he did. I try to teach my girls about him and let them know how much he loves them as well as every single person that he created. Josie loves praying, Sunday school, singing, and learning all about the things that God has created. Jolie is coming into her own as she now is starting to fold her hands and sing the meal blessing with us. I pray that God will mold me into a Godly mother.